love being creative, but I find that my creativity is
somewhat limited when I try to force things. When I
try to make things come out a certain way, a different
part of my brain seems to be "in charge," trying
to create something that I want to see--in my preconceived
notion--rather than what wants to come out of me.
It's a control issue, in many ways.
understand it, though--when I was in school, all my art
teachers told me that what I drew needed to look exactly
like the object I was drawing. I was very hard on
myself when my artistic "creations" didn't look
just like a rose or a house or a tree or a mountain.
There didn't seem to be a lot of room for letting things
happen on their own--it seemed that I had to make them
happen in certain ways.
time has passed, I've found that I can be much more
creative by relaxing and trying to let things flow through
me. I've learned that when I do this, I can accept
things that I do or say or write much more easily, and I
can enjoy the process much more.
also learned that there doesn't have to be a finished
product that I can share with others when I just allow the
creativity to happen. I can have creative thoughts
without writing them down, and I can dream up creative
images without capturing them on paper or canvas.